In that ninth year of life
A voice took root
And every single day
From morning to night
I would hear it say
You'd be better off dead.
You'd be better off dead
Fed me and starved me
Through my teens, my twenties
All around me everyone smiled
While every day I battled
You'd be better off dead
You'd be better off dead went away
When my third baby came to stay
She gave me new life
And for nine years straight
My mind forgot about the poison
That would contaminate my head
A surprise visitor today, a voice
Long stifled by Love, Joy, Self Worth
Knocked the wind right out of me
Convinced my own eyes to drown me
Filled my mind with poison words -
You'd be better off dead!
Ten minutes dying in a self hate war
You'd be better off dead beat me
I fell, I cried, I wanted to die
Then Love, Joy, Self Worth stood tall
Took up arms and fought for me
I saw through drowning tears, My Life
My time is now
Not when it's too late
I rose and kicked off the shackles
You'd be better off dead
Lay harmless today when a
Warrior stood and took her place.
A voice took root
And every single day
From morning to night
I would hear it say
You'd be better off dead.
You'd be better off dead
Fed me and starved me
Through my teens, my twenties
All around me everyone smiled
While every day I battled
You'd be better off dead
You'd be better off dead went away
When my third baby came to stay
She gave me new life
And for nine years straight
My mind forgot about the poison
That would contaminate my head
A surprise visitor today, a voice
Long stifled by Love, Joy, Self Worth
Knocked the wind right out of me
Convinced my own eyes to drown me
Filled my mind with poison words -
You'd be better off dead!
Ten minutes dying in a self hate war
You'd be better off dead beat me
I fell, I cried, I wanted to die
Then Love, Joy, Self Worth stood tall
Took up arms and fought for me
I saw through drowning tears, My Life
My time is now
Not when it's too late
I rose and kicked off the shackles
You'd be better off dead
Lay harmless today when a
Warrior stood and took her place.